The End is Beginning...

So that whole blogging-through-tech-week thing didn't exactly come to fruition, did it?  Sorry...I barely had time to sleep or eat, let alone tell you all about it...

Anyway, Nutcracker has been done for 3 days now, and I guess I'm more relieved than sad.  But I'm still sad.  The performances went better than I could have possibly expected them to.  I had more fun dancing Snow Queen on stage, and it finally felt like all those tears were worth it.  I've never cried so much over a role ever, and it was more amazing than I could have imagined.  Truth be told, I am a little sad it's over though.  That was my last IUBT Nutcracker.  That is the 2nd to last time I will share the MAC stage with them.  There is nothing like the friendships I have with these people.  We've been through everything together the last 2 1/2 years and I can't believe that in a few short months, I will be an alumna of Indiana University and will be leaving behind all the wonderful people that this place has allowed me to meet.  I never wanted to do college.  And it has turned into the most incredible and unexpected blessing in my life.  Best, most important decision ever.  I just need not to focus so much on the imminence of graduation and savor my last semester of college with the best friends ever.

I finally finished my Chaucer paper last night (thank God).  Not sure how I did and I honestly don't care all that much...though I probably will when I get it back...ugh.  I'm really bummed because I basically have nothing to do for the next week...my only two finals are next Thursday and Friday.  Cruel, cruel joke, Registrar's Office.  I just want to be home.  Praying for motivation and resolve for this last week.

I cannot wait to be home with family celebrating Christmas...I feel like I haven't really been able to enjoy the season yet because I've been so swamped with Nutcracker and school and it being 7 degrees here in Btown. 

Alrighty, I'm off to watch more bad made-for-tv Christmas movies in an effort to take my mind off how hungry I am and then head to bed.  I hope all of you who are studying for finals are fairing better than I am.  Safe travels for those of you making journeys home soon.  <3

BEDA Vingt-Sept...No time to write; too busy having a blast

That picture was a twitpic retweeted by IU's twitterfeed of the pond in the arboretum with the Wells Library in the background.  Gorgeous isn't it?

This is going to be a fairly short post, but I didn't want to skip it completely because I made a promise to myself that I would finish BEDA and I don't go back on promises. 

I am currently sitting at my desk, which faces the window, which looks out onto one of the main drags of campus, and I can't stop smiling.  It is even more beautiful here than I remember it.  I know that this may seem like complete and utter bullshit, but IU really is one of the best places I've ever been.  I love everything about it here, and it took me until I literally drove into campus, parked my car in the garage, and had reunions with some of the most amazing people in the whole world for me to remember that.  All summer I felt like I was missing IU, but I was filled with sheer dread every time I thought about it for some reason.  But I really had nothing to worry about.  It is as amazing (and, perhaps even more amazing) as ever, and I'm so happy to be back.

Last night, I went to two of the dancers' apartment (along with most of the rest of the department), and we sat around and drank too much wine and played Kings and laughed and hugged and it was lovely.  And I love everyone.  And I'm gonna get back to having the most fun ever.  K bye.

Currently stuck in my head: Too busy having fun to listen to music...

BEDA Vingt-Six...Back in the promised land

I'm so glad I'm back at school.  While there's always a period of readjustment, when I was driving into campus, I was literally grinning like an idiot.  This place is so beautiful and I've already seen so many of my favorite people in the world.  And I'm taking major-taught ballet tomorrow and there's the Jacobs School welcome ice cream social (which has become one of my favorite events ever) and there's a ballet party tonight and AHH!  I am so happy. 

I really don't have much else to report.  Oh, except driving on the interstate actually wasn't superhorrendouslyawful scary like my mom made me think it was and I made it here in one piece (praise Jesus).  And I haven't decorated at all and there are still boxes all over my floor.  Thank goodness I didn't bring all my stuff today and the madre and Dave are bringing the rest Saturday...much less stressful to do it in two parts.  Also, I had Mockingjay sent to my sorority house, so it is now in my possession, though I fear if I pick it up and start reading I will lose valuable hang-out time, so I'm gonna hold off until at least tomorrow.  

Forgive the short post, but there are friends to attend to :)

Currently stuck in my head: "Mine" by the always overplayed T-Swift.  Does anyone else think she sounds kinda flat in that song?

I have a blog? Oh...right...whoops...

Hello there, old friends.  Or new friends.  Or people who read this.  Which is probably no one, but that's fine.  I'm sitting up in bed way, way, way past my bedtime and remembered that I used to use this.  But then I forgot about it.  And didn't have anything to write about.  So I stopped.  As usually happens with me...and then I don't do something for so long that I feel weird going back to it, etc., etc., you get the gist.  Whatever.

Anywho....I guess I'm writing now because I can't sleep and have nothing better to do and I've been home for a total of 5 days and I'm already completely stir crazy and cabin fever ridden and dying.  O hai, run-on sentence.  You're awesome.

Let's see...where to begin?  After spending 6 weeks at IU for summer session I and the next 5 in Orlando, Florida as an RA for Orlando Ballet School's summer intensive, home is a complete and utter bore.  I'm restless and I miss everyone and I feel old and I'm just generally frustrated.  You see, I haven't spent much time at home since I went away to high school at 14, so, naturally I don't really have a life here.  Yes, my family's here and yes, I love them, but there's only so much togetherness I can take before I start going nuts.  And to make matters worse this time around, I'm 22 and the few friends I did have who still live here are now graduated from college and beginning their lives elsewhere.  Which is great for them.  But no so much for me.

Also, everyone I met in Orlando is truly, truly amazing, and I miss everyone and it sucks.  And I also got to go hang out at Infinitus for a few hours and see some awesome people, which was awesome, but then sad because I had to leave them.

So, basically right now I just feel like I'm in a kind of limbo...waiting for something to happen...anything to happen, while I figure out how I'm going to survive northwest Indiana for the next 3 1/2 weeks.  Any suggestions?

Sorry this was rambly and whiney...I'll have a real update about what I've been doing with my life for the past 4 months very soon (hopefully).  Okloveyoubye.